Friday, December 25, 2009

Christmas spirit?

At some point in the last 4 years of my life I started treating Christmas for what it really is. I stopped treating it as colorful lights and tons of presents and peppermint flavored everything and music that most people think is annoying but I just so happen to listen to year round. I started seeing it as Jesus' birthday and started putting my change into the little red buckets. So go me, right? I just became a "good person" um... wrong. Christ's birth is so much more than any other birth. The savior of the world was born a poor vulnerable child in a dirty barn and would later grow up to change the world... to save the world... to save you and me and the guy that rang up all the Christmas crap I bought today at target. He deserves so much more than a "happy birthday Jesus, man youre old, I love you. Im gonna go eat a candy cane now." He deserves so much more than we could ever give... I am still learning how to make my Christmas day, and every day for that matter a day that Jesus is praised and loved above all else. A couple days ago while sitting in my bathroom sink putting mascara on my eyeballs a song came on the radio that shook me up inside and made me want to throw up in a good way... p.s. I know I say stuff like that alot "throw up in a good way" "slapped in the face in a good way" its the only way I know how to describe the feeling... any way I urge you to listen to Francesca Battistelli's Youre Here...

Hold on now, I gotta take a deep breath
I don’t know what to say when I look in your eyes
You made the world before I was born
Here I am holding You in my arms tonight

Noel, Noel
Jesus our Emmanuel

You’re here
I’m holding You so near
I’m staring into the face of my Savior
King and Creator
You could’ve left us on our own
But You’re here

Don’t know how long I’m gonna have You for
But I’ll be watching when You change the world
Look at Your hands, they’re still so small
Someday You’re gonna stretch them out and save us all

Noel, Noel, God with us Emmanuel

You’re here, I’m holding You so near oooh oh
I’m staring into the face of my Savior
King and Creator
You could’ve left us on our own
But you’re here, you’re here

Someday I’m gonna look back on this
The night that God became a baby boy
Someday You’re gonna go home again,
But You leave your spirit and flood the world with joy

You’ll be here, I’m holding You so near
I’m staring into the face of my Savior, King and Creator
You could’ve left me on my own, but you’re here… You’re here
Hallelujah, You’re here
Hallelujah, You’re here

Oh how Mary must have felt... to be holding her beautiful helpless newborn baby and at the same time that baby created her before she was born and knows the depths of her heart. To know that those chubby little baby cheeks will someday save the world. It is impossible to put to words. So beautiful. So unimaginable. So amazing.

That is the definition of Christmas. Merry Christmas, hug your dad, tell your friends you love them, and remember that it was a little baby from Bethlehem who saved you from your self. I love you all.

Oh and side note... as I am working to worry less about giving extravagant presents I will not give up my obsession to yearlong Christmas music and things that taste like peppermint that become an addiction this time of year. that is all.

also... i really should not have been driving around town all day trying to find a Justin Beiber cd for my sister... but I just love her too much to have her go without the pre-pubescent voice of a 15 year old heart throb. Who knew that little scoop banged, hoodie wearing Canadians cd would be sold out at every freaking store in Arizona. 

Thursday, December 10, 2009

dashing december.

i live the majority of my life at lost canyon and i wouldnt want it any other way... 
Dear Jesus, I dont know why you would want to let me be a part of your work but thank you. thank you for giving me a front row seat as i watch hearts be transformed, thank you that while i strive to show them who you are they do the same for me without even realizing it, thank you that you are absolutely in love with these darling girls and thank you for giving me a breath taking glimpse of eternity as i sat on that warm cabin floor while each of them announced that they were in love with you too.

little brother you are a potty mouth, smelly, gross, bratty little blessing.

team jacob..... were passionate.

im not wordy and inspirational but things i read are. my favorite quotes of lately:

"I want to keep walking away from the person I was a moment ago, because a mind was made to figure things out, not to read the same page recurrently."
-Donald Miller

"I do not believe a person can take two issues from Scripture, those being abortion and gay marriage, and adhere to them as sins, then neglect much of the rest and call himself a fundamentalist or even a conservative. The person who believes the sum of his morality involves gay marriage and abortion alone, and neglects health care and world trade and the environment and loving his neighbor and feeding the poor is, by definition, a theological liberal, because he takes what he wants from Scripture and ignores the rest." 
-Donald Miller

"And I think thats what our world is desperately in need of- lovers, people who are building deep, genuine relationships with fellow strugglers along the way, and who actually know the faces of the people behind the issues they are concerned about."
-Shane Claiborne 

thats all for now. 
love. love. love. love. love. love.