Sunday, November 7, 2010
We are 7 days into November! AHHHH!!! The most wonderful time of the year is here and if you see me during the next two months and I am even more giddy, and cheesy, and weird... just go with it. The Christmas music has already begun. So anyway heres a little look at my October...
The beginning of my month looked like this..... school.... younglife... school... younglife... school... younglife... yeah you get it... and then it was midterms... which I stressed a lot more for than I needed to... oh yeah and I got 100 percent on two of my tests and one of my presentations, take that college! The weekend after midterm week I took a much needed vacation to California with some of my favorite people.
We went to downtown disney and took pictures outside of california adventure but did not go inside. Ive never been that close to my favorite place in the world without actually going there. I almost cried.
Then we went to Universal Studios Horror Nights. I havent been to Universal Studios since I was like 5 so it was pretty fun. The mazes were pretty scary although the boys were waaaaay more scared then the girls. hahaha
Then it was Monday night and time to spend it the way I have for the last 7 years. Oh, YoungLife :)
One Friday, the GCU YL ambassadors and some of the student staff from around the state had our monthly meeting and this month it was held at the prayer garden in Scottsdale. It was such a blessing! Probably the highlight of my month. I have never ever in my life interacted with a real life sister, or nun or whatever you want to call them. And I never in my life thought that my first interaction would include laughs, hugs, singing, waving Jesus flags in the air, tears, joy... so much joy and a heart of mine so full of awe and thanks. They were so adorable. My favorite was this little German lady with a thick accent that had to be at least 70. I could listen to her talk about God all day. They kept telling us crazy college kids how proud and thankful they were for us and all we do with YoungLife. Proud of us? Thankful for us? These ladies are crazy in love with Jesus, they have dedicated their lives to him in ways that I couldnt even imagine. While sitting there singing with them and then getting to walk around the garden after I was so overwhelmed with emotions. It is still crazy to think this is my life. That at 21 my Friday afternoon is spent with nuns singing and laughing and not getting ready to go out to some club or party. I just look at who I was and who I am and know that Jesus is in love with me. I am so in love with my creator it is ridiculous but it is his affection towards me that has brought me to where I am. :)
Saturday the 30th was YoungLife's all Arizona 55 year celebration fundraising banquet. As I worked registration, sat with table guests, saw Jerry Colangelo (!!!!), and the President of YoungLife, Denny Rydberg (!!!), listened to JJ Heller sing, and stood on stage with the rest of the GCU YL ambassadors I had another "how is this my life?!" moment. Jesus is so real guys... and when you let him, he takes your life and turns it into the complete opposite of what your little high school self thought it was gonna look like. YoungLife, the ministry that has my heart (and all of my time) has been in Arizona for over 55 years! I had no idea just how big YoungLife was when I was forced to go to my first YoungLife club when I was 15. The opening ceremony for the banquet was so epic! haha I was in tears like a little nerd. They had a kid from each YoungLIfe, Wyldlife, YoungLives, Capernaum, and Collegelife club in Arizona represent their club. They all walked in with flags as the names of school flashed on the screen. Something that also just blew me away and reminded me again why I love this ministry so much was at the very beginning of the night while people were still registering. If you have never been to a YoungLife camp when kids first arrive they are greeted by the work crew cheering their little hearts out and giving away smiles and high fives like their life depended on it. Thats how heaven is going to look like when we arrive. All the angels hollering their heads off at our presence. so beautiful :) Anyway, that is how we greet crazy teenagers... but YoungLife is "so YoungLife"...so how do we greet old professional possible donors? In the same way having those crazy high schoolers form a tunnel and cheer, of course. :) Also, all of the GCU YL ambassadors are quickly becoming hands down my favorite people. Some of them ive known for years and some of them I am just getting to know. But we get to be guinea pigs of what is becoming a beautiful relationship between Grand Canyon University and YoungLife together, we get to be each others safe zone and accountability. We get to grow together. We get to worship God together. And we get to do it all while wearing spiffy purple polos. :)
Oh my gosh, I just love my friends!
Oh and I love the leadership team in the Southwest Valley. Every single one of them. The leaders, the new leaders, the junior leaders, the area director who was once my high school theater teacher/ reason I believe in Christ, the committee, the kids we build relationships with. So great! Oh and I especially like Edi for bringing some kind of snack to every single one of our meetings. :)
Sunday, October 10, 2010
"Growing up in Arizona, you don't see much rain. When it does rain here, it is an event. I have always loved the rain more than anyone really should. We use sunshine and warm weather to represent happiness and rainy weather and clouds to represent sadness and gloominess. For me it has always been the opposite. On overcast days my heart has a big cheesy smile and I feel more alive than usual. Add rain and wind and my heart is literally dancing around in my chest. Some of my favorite memories were just ordinary days accompanied by rain. I think of dancing in the street with my sister, playing mud football with some friends, staying in the house all cuddled up in sweatpants and a cup of coffee watching chick flicks or reading a good book, driving to a bible study listening to Matt Wertz and drinking a peppermint mocha, and yes, even trying not to die as I run to class after the most ridiculous hail storm I had ever seen. I cannot explain the surge of happiness and sense of living I feel when it's raining. I have never felt closer to God then I do when I am standing in the rain taking it all in. Conclusion: I need to move to Seattle."
Dear rain, come back now pleeeeeaaaaaaaaaasssssseeeeeeee...
Monday, October 4, 2010
I feel like I am too busy. That there are not enough hours in the day to get everything done. But if you look at my usual weekly schedule it almost looks like I do nothing with my life.
But back to God being crazy. A few months ago he said this to me "wyldlife" to which I said "ew no!"
And then three weeks ago he said it again. This time I wasnt such a brat. But in the back of my mind I just laughed and thought nothing of it. Im way too comfortable in younglife. I love high schoolers, I get them, and they are just the right amount of immature and childish without being... well... junior high kids.
And then it was friday and I was leaving to Lost Canyon for the weekend for a leadership retreat. And it was an amazing weekend where I got to sing my heart out and escape from school work and hear the wise words of the first ever suns gorilla. And then it was Saturday morning and I was praying and God told me to "lead leaders" wtf? what does that even mean. But I was just happy that the wyldlife talk took a backseat. Then I go to the tall one's (Scott Didricksons) seminar on discipleship which I kind of regret cause Scott always has a way of calling me out on my b.s. without realizing it. (Which I am so thankful for by the way). Flash forward to that afternoon and Im having a conversation outside of the whistle stop with my area director, Cory and he tells me "Youre head leading our new wyldlife club." And instead of being a brat like I had been to God I just said ok. Cause everything God had been telling me was all starting to make sense, and I guess junior highers cant be thaaaaat bad... and even if they are, the leadership team I get the privlidge of "head leading" are some of the most amazing people in the history of the world.
Oh and then I got back from that weekend and went to Younglife club that monday where Jesus showed us again just how amazing he is...
140 plus kids at Younglife??? SO AMAZING.
I really can't express how thankful I am for this ministry.
Anyway, I was reading Donald Millers blog, which I do often. I literally read the same entries ive read 213512 times already and still get blessed by them. You should check it out http://donmilleris.com/ And I was reading an entry about humility and this one got me thinking...
"I am not a humble person. I’m proud of my accomplishments. I drop names when I’m feeling insecure. I also talk about the cool projects I’m working on when I want to impress somebody. If you’ve known me for long, you’ve probably heard me do it. Sorry about that.
But the truth is, I don’t really want to be a humble person. It’s not a goal of mine. I don’t think about it, and I have a lot more emotional stability because I don’t think about it. If I get too arrogant somebody will humble me. When you write a blog you get criticism every hour on the hour, and that certainly helps.
Truly humble people don’t get called humble very often. In fact, if you are consistently spoken of as humble, you might want to reflect on whether or not you are trying to project a humble identity, which is just another form of narcissism. People who are humble are too busy thinking about a project they are working on, or their family, or their friends. Their mind isn’t on their humility or their lack of humility; their mind is on something other than themselves. In doing so, they help other people focus on something other than themselves, too. And that’s true freedom. We live in a fallen world, so you and I are only going to accomplish this in shades. I’m not humble, but I don’t sit around and condemn myself for it either, which is yet another form of narcissism. I’m pretty awesome that way. I also once met Harry Connick Jr and his girlfriend thought I had nice hair. Try being humble when that sort of thing has happened to you. It’s freaking impossible."
pretty good stuff. I want to marry Donald Miller.... or at least marry someone with all his genius thoughts. well... I was gonna reflect on this humility stuff but Im tired and I want to catch up on Greys Anatomy before I go to sleep. Goodnight...
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Jesus, why are you so good to me? Tonight was our first YoungLife club of the semester and I almost want to cry tears of joy thinking about how amazing it was. So much energy, so many new faces, so much fist pumping... so incredible.
And the very best part of my night... watching the best junior leaders in the entire universe selflessly serve their peers. They fell in love with Jesus and now they want the same for their friends and they are just the cutest little things in the world handing out club cards, and picking up trash, and carrying a kiddie pool off the stage.
I am so blessed.:)
There are a million little things in my life right now that could play out in a million different ways and sometimes I go crazy trying to figure it all out. But my life is in his hands and he is in charge of those million little things and I JUST KNOW that he has amazing things in store for me.
aaaaaaaaannndddd yes i have classes ALL DAY tomorrow but if I can just get through this week its off to lost canyon for spouse quest... er... i mean leadership weekend 2010! yay!
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where my heart can't follow
cause this grace gets so far
and too hard to swallow
i've been running from Saul,
he's been giving chase
when i look in his eyes
all i see is my face
are you still on my back
after all these years?
chasing my out of hell
and my nice veeners
i don't know how you stand
when you've got no floor
or how you can breathe
with your hands on boards
i just want to be not what i am today
i just want to be better than my friends might say
i just want a small part in your passion play
do you hear when i call
in the midst of wrong?
do you hear these here words
while i sing this song?
are you caught up in me
like i heard you say?
or just some big cashier
that i'll have to pay
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
"Seriously, I don't care what happens. I don't care if we kill someone.."